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I've realized for a thirteen year old girl, my language is kind of vulgar.
( oh the lies we tell. )

[ooc: my punishment, wooo!]

Life is cruel. Just when you think things have gotten better and you're back on your feet, life throws a curve ball and as the obnoxious kid in my class would say, "will fuck you up". Pardon my language, but he does hit the nail on the head.

( the day from hell... )

Christmas is in two days.

My sister is coming home for Christmas.

Need I say more?

I love candy canes. Apparently one of my coworkers, their grandparents owns a candy store, and they make their own candy. Which is kind of amazing, and I'm somewhat jealous. I would rather make candy for a living then work here at the bar. But then, the bar does pay well (and the fact I'm underage and they hired me). So he came to work today, and he was handing out candy canes. Which, you know, is what I just need to be walking around the bar sucking on a candy cane. But anyways, they were amazing. Probably the best thing that has happened to me this past week, seeing as finals are approaching and things are pretty intense for me. You never realize how great candy is, until you are down and have some, the sugar brightens you up. I was smiling the whole night, it was a great feeling.

Of course, then I get home, and I am yelled at by my father. Guess my sister accomplished a great mission, so my father was lecturing me once again, "Why can't you be more like your sister..." and blah blah blah. So my smile was gone after that, but it was good while it lasted? Can't he just see that I'm nothing like my sister. But he can't. She's too great.

I need more candy canes...

I've been thinking lately. Of course, I've had plenty of time for thinking, but lately it's about this one thing. You know when you ignore someone, it usually means you don't want to talk to them/you don't like them, right? That's the idea the person should get, that you obviously don't want to insinuate with them at all. Then, how come lately when I ignore a person, they seem to take it as an invitation that I want to talk to them. I've been getting the opposite of what I want...which I don't understand. I mean, I do understand it when I'm working cause they're drunken men, they can't help it. But, when someone is CLEARLY sober, and I go out of my way to ignore them, they seem to think I want to talk to them. That I like them. What the hell? Have things changed and I haven't noticed? That ignoring someone is the new way of saying, "Hey! I want to be friends and have a wonderful meaningful conversation with you!" No! It isn't that way, and it's very frustrating when people talk to me when I don't want to talk to them!

On a sadder note...I can't remember the last time I laughed? That's kind of pathetic...I need to change that as soon as possible. Because there's one person I know that never laughs, and I do not want to end up like them. My worst nightmare. So, anyone willing to help me find a sense of humor?

{i'm sure everyone is interested on what Elena is about, so I'll post this so you can take a lookie =) }

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